Alex and Alex have been bothering me about mattt lately. Beth kinda does too but i never feel beth is realy pushing me into anything, just presenting her own oppinion. Alex and Aled however ( perticularly big alex ) askes nearly every day when and if i have broken up with my "girlfriend" yet. At first it was funny, but it is starting to bother me a bit. I know some of my friends don't like him because he is... white bread, and i am more like jambalaya and the two don't mix ( although garlic bread works nicely ) It bothers me thogh that my friends don't like him. I think it may be a prablem of the both of them. Mattt is not thrilled because he wants his friends to be my friends, which i am happy to do if he ever spent time with them outside of trojan vision, and he doesn't want me to have friends at northridge bcasue he believes that it will influince my decision in which school i will attend in the fall ( should i get accepted to USC ) but it is not as if his attending USC doesn't influence me.

My point is i am sad that my friends are not his friends and becasue he is a bit reluctant to accept them, becasue by accepting them as friends he feels he binds me to northridge ever more and he beleive i can attend a better and more expensive school, my friends decide that he is boaring, and unowrthy, and that they don't like him.

This however puts me in an awword situation becasue i love mattt, at least i think i do, and i realy realy like my friends and i refuse to choose between them, because that is just stupid, i now have to devide my time because they are not so keen on spending time together.

What matt doesn't realize however is that should i choose to go to USC, which both he and my parents are pushing, it will be a bit more difficaly for me to see my northridge friends, and will thereby test the friendship a bit and just make things a bit more difficalt in general and his being friends with my friends, shoudl i choose usc, would make it easier for me because i would not have to devide my time as much and would be able to soend more time with them.

What my friends don't understand is that mattt has been by mest friend for about 4 years now, and i have been dating him for 3 years, and he is very very important to me. I'm not saying he has prsidence, but his hold/effect on me is very very strong, and it is not dissmissed very easily.

So what do i do?
- posted by annie @ 9:16 PM